Since Reno, I've not played much poker at all. I had a great time there and was pumped about my play and the fact that I came home ahead, money-wise.
I'd love to live that life and give it a real go. I do think I'd be good at it. And I'm going to keep trying every chance I get. I got down after coming home, realizing that my life at this moment is not conducive to living the poker rockstar lifestyle.
First of all, poker is hard. And tournaments require more luck than I can stomach sometimes. Second of all, I don't live near a live casino where I can "work" a poker 9-5 (or a 12-hour shift, which would be more my style). Third, although it doesn't seem like I have a job, I do, and I need to work if I'm going to keep up my end of the bargain around here, financially. Finally, and most importantly, I've got a family I love very much. Poker is very time consuming and whether it's online or live - it's time away from people I need and I love. I've got to work on a balance there to make sure that I am properly showing those I love that I do love them. My daughter's only 5 once. I don't want to miss any of it. Nor do I want to shirk the obligations I have toward her future well-being.
I'm still planning on traveling in the upcoming year to some live tournaments. I'm still working on my game to be the very best I can be. And I'm still going to give the poker community hell about, well, whatever floats my boat at the moment.
I'd love to hear from female poker players on how they deal with such issues. What about you all? How do you balance poker and your life? Let me know! I'm always looking for a little help.
In the meantime - Happy Thanksgiving and Happy upcoming Holidays!! I hope you all are enjoying life and the loved ones you're surrounded by.
Oh, and good luck at the tables!