The last time I made a trip to play a bunch of live tournaments, I was playing a ton of online poker. I wasn't having a ton of success, but I was playing. A lot. Obviously that scene's changed for all of us since Black Friday. Aside from that lack, though, something else feels different for me, and I can't quite articulate it...I'm thinking, though, that it has to do with mi familia. We've been putting a ton of work in on the house and the backyard lately and it's starting to come together. Plus, it's summertime and my baby's home with me as I work from my home office during the day (at least on those days she's not at summer camp).
This week, she's in Miami with my better half and my MIL. I was supposed to go, but I had a last minute hearing this morning that I just couldn't get changed. As a result, I'm without my loves this week AND the next two weeks. While I'll get to see them briefly this weekend before I leave on Monday, I'm already missing them.
As I write all this, I guess what I'm feeling is conflicted. My trip to Vegas, while I know it's going to be fun, is a business trip for me - just like my trip to Reno was. If I go and I do not play my best and do not score well, then I know I'm going to feel as though I've wasted two weeks out of my regular work schedule and two weeks from my loves. Even though my eyes are open about the variance involved in tournament poker and I know enough to recognize the futility of being results oriented, I want to win and anything less than a win is going to suck and feel like a waste to me. Is it that way for you, too? I can't be the only one...
Every year for the past two years I've spent time in Vegas during the series. I did better last year then I did the year before. I've got my goals for this year, too. All I can do is play my best, learn as much as I can, and grow from the experience.
Looking at the tweets of so many good and great players during the course of this year's series, I know I'm just one of many looking to win. But just like each of them, that's exactly what I'll be trying my hardest to do.
What an opportunity it is to play this game that is so fun (FUN!) fun to play, and yet so difficult to master. Every hand, every table, every moment - it's such a challenge, such an adventure, such a journey, played against an opponent(s), but often times played solely against self as we struggle with decisions. So very much like life in so many ways. Each hand, like each new moment, an opportunity. The question, each time: what will you do with this opportunity?